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Say only what you mean and mean everything that you say. Walk the talk because our integrity is shown by coherence in the way we think, act and speak. Our character is shaped by the actions we make and the choices we take.

JULY 22, 2006 SATURDAY
ang datos ng gobyerno ay underestimated. ang datos ng ibon foundation ay exaggerated. ang datos ng sws/pulse asia ay subjective.

meron kaming reading sa polsci14, Income Poverty and Inequality in the Philippines, penned by the ADB. dun ko nalaman, hahaha, ginagago lang pala tayo ng gobyerno pag dating sa mga datos. poverty. unemployment. tama nga si profps11, wag lang daw bastabasta tanggapin ang mga sinasabi ng gobyerno. kailangan busisihin, kilatisin ng mabuti.

pati tuloy mga datos nila ngayon sa ekonomiya, di ko na din maiwasang pagdudahan. gdp, gnp, portfolio investments, direct investments. tsktsk.

astig, may palabas sa anc, ang title square off, every week may (formal)debate tas ang naghaharap si mike defensor pati si chiz escudero. kanina, ang topic medyo may kinalaman sa mga datos na bagong labas.

sabi ni profps11,

"the greatest irony in this country is that the government is being run by UP people"

tsktsktsk. nakakalungkot.

Posted at SATURDAY, JULY 22 2006 BY onivelnyu

JULY 14, 2006 FRIDAY
Walang masulat, hehehe. Halos dalawang linggo na ang nakakaraan ng pinasagutan sa amin ang cliché na tanong, “ano ang mga nakikita mong problema ng pilipinas?”. Naisipan ko lang iupload ang naging sagot ko. Walang masulat, pasensya na. hehehe.

Ang problema ng ating bansa ay sankaterba; na kung isa isang babanggitin ay maaring kukulangin maski ang isang buong pad ng yelow peyper. Identity crisis, wrong priorities, sandamakmak na utang panlabas, bulok na sistema, kawalan ng disiplina etc. lahat ng ito ay kakabit ng mga problema ng bansa; maaring bunga, dahilan o sila mismo ang problema.
Maraming nagsasabi na ang sistema ang problema. Ang “sistema” raw. Ang sistema ng gobyerno, ang sistema na umiiral sa pang arawaraw na buhay ni Juan Dela Cruz (kultura?) o maaring parehas. Meron din naming nagsasabi na ang “tao” ang problema. Si GMA daw, ang mga taong nagpapatakbo ng gobyerno, mismong si Juan Dela Cruz.
Ang sistema ang problema – kailangan baguhin. Dahil kahit matino ang tao kung bulok din lang naman ang sistema, babalik din ito sa dati. Ngunit sino ba ang gumagawa ng sistema? Hindi ba ang tao din lang? Chicken or egg?
Hindi naman ako isang dalubhasa o pantas man upang magpanggap na marami ng alam sa bansa at magsasadjest ng isang solusyon na tila ba isang majik wand na kapag ikinumpas e *poof* mawawala na ang sandamakmak na problema ng bansa (SPNB) – hindi naman sa meron talagang ganoon (majik wand ba). Para sa akin, ang SPNB ay hindi madaling hanapan ng solusyon, hindi ito parang lagnat na isang gamot lamang ang katapat.
Para sa akin, nangangailangan ito ng higit sa lahat kooperasyon ng bawat isang Pilipino. Genuine, humble, sincere na pagbabago. Hindi ito madalian o mabilisan na proseso, kung ano tayo ngayon (kasama na ang SPNB) ay produkto ng ating mahigit 400 taong kasaysayan. Gradual na proseso; pagbabago na tuloytuloy.
Sistema o tao? Parehas! Kailangang baguhin ang mga nakagawian, kailangan baguhin ang sistema, kailangan magbago ang tao. Sistema o tao? Pwedeng simulan sa sistema, pwedeng simulan sa tao – mas mabuti kung sisimulan ng sabay.

Hindi ko natapos irewrite ung sagot ko, naubusan ako ng time, hindi ng yelow peyper, ehehehe. Hahaha, nagpasa ako ng bitin na essay. Naisip ko lang ngayon, hindi ko naman sinagot ung tinatanong nung prof. hahahaha. Oh well. Masyado ko din kasing dinibdib yung tanong. Ehehe.

Posted at FRIDAY, JULY 14 2006 BY onivelnyu

JUNE 30, 2006 FRIDAY
i lost my phone.
everything happened so fast. one moment i was holding my phone, preparing to get off, the next, i was searching my pockets. it was gone.

mga messages sa 2 inbox nung sim.
mga messages sa inbox nung phone.
mga messages sa folder.
mga pictures.
mga recordings (sa boarding house pati ilang kanta).
mga games, tones.
mga numbers.
mga reminders, birthdays.
picture sa likod nung phone.
:(

may bago na uli ako number at isang pansamantalang phone. salamat sa tita kong mapagkawanggawa. *siiiiigh*
amp. kalagitnaan ng klase namin nagdatingan mga tibak. walkout daw, walkout.
issue: tuition fee increase.
*siiiigh*

Posted at FRIDAY, JUNE 30 2006 BY onivelnyu

JUNE 22,2006 THURSDAY
(mahigit)isang linggong enrollment. only in up. nyahahahaha. enlist ng polsci11, polsci14 at span10. (sumubok mag-) prerog ng math100, comm3, panpil17. prerog ng fil40. nagpa enlist ng panpil19, socio10. nagpa cancel ng panpil19, socio10. tueday-last day- nakuha ang envsci1. piptin yunits. paynali na tapos din. walang pe, wlang nstp, walang math100, dedo ako next sem, (super) overload ako, tsktsk.

ayun... ah. masaya skedyul ko. eto o:

Lunes / Huwebes 2 na asignatura, isa sa umaga isa sa hapon, 10.00am-11.30am; 1.00pm-2.30pm

Martes / Byernes 3 na asignatura, tuloy tuloy, pagpatak ng 10.00am, magsisimula ang aking kalbaryo, walang breyk hanggang 2.30pm.

magaan sched ko, tsktsk. lagot ako next sem. hahahah.

waaaaaaaaaaaa. ang hirap pala ng salungat mo ng pananaw ung prof mo. tsktsk. pataypatay ako. di pa nagsisimula ng diskurso, mukhang di ko ayon ng opinyon polsci14 ko(prof. felipe miranda). ohwell. ryt minus wrong. huhuhuh. pero mukhang masaya naman klase nya, hahaha, gudluck na nga lang sakin.

sana mag uaap na uli. para masaya. hehehe. astig.

Posted at THURSDAY, JUNE 22 2006 BY onivelnyu

JUNE 16,2006 SATURDAY
hindi pa din ako tapos mag enroll, kulang pa ko ng isa pang subject. preprog mode ako ngayon. heheheh. gudluck na lang, tuesday na deadline. hahaha.

tsktsk. lumabas na yearbook namin. mukhang hindi maganda mga feedback. sa wednesday ko kunin yung akin.

the best ang sunset sa manila bay - mall of asia. astigin. magandang alternatib sa baywalk na masyado ng obercrowded. magnda tanawin, lakas hangin, onti tao.astig.

hmm...... gusto ko pumunta ng lb, malapit na pasukan nila kuya, la lang. hahahaha.

Posted at SATURDAY, JUNE 16 2006 BY onivelnyu

JUNE 08,2006 THURSDAY
dammit. nakakapagod mag manual enrollment. bale wala din yun pagiging tricoll ko, disadvantage pa nga naging dating. shoot. wala pa ko ge hanggang ngayon. majors pa lang. tsktsk. friday na bukas. goodluck na lang sakin.

an exhausting, frustrating yet learning experience. got to meet a lot of people. hahaha, from lb, manila! oh, even someone coming all the way from cebu! cooool. hahaha. sir adviser asked, u guys have plans to pursue law? cebu guy: uuh..yeah; us two: uuh...*laugh*. the only center of excellence in Political Science in the country. cool. :D

babalik ako dun bukas, may math100 pa kong hahabulin try din maghahanap ng ge (econ31 probably). wish me luck. :D

Posted at THURSDAY, JUNE 08 2006 BY onivelnyu

JUNE 1,2006 THURSDAY

nyahahahahahahaha. galing ako ng mall of asia kahapon. 4 kami. tas nung tuesday sa rob nova/ sm fair. 9 kami. sa wakas natuloy na din yung barakada lakad. ehehehe. antagal ding na postpone. pinanuud namin x3 ska dvcode. typical hollywood movie, x3 predictable, dvc, uuh... trash.

mall of asia, malaki, 4 na "malls" may sarili silang baywalk! the best pa din tlga ang sunset sa manila bay, sayang nga lng wala kaming dalang camera.asteeeeeg. andaming choices. nbs, powerbooks, fully booked, waaaaaaaaaaa astiiiiig! tas may razon's pa. cooool!

swinerte ako sa ba political science. cssp, diliman. astig, hehehehehe. ok na, ang next ko na balik sa enrollment na sa june7. bagong taon nananaman. kaya kaya? kakayanin! hehe. salamat sa mga bumati ^__^

yinaya ko tita(with her kids) ko pati si kuya(his back from lb), baka sa sabado mall of asia uli kami. hehehe. astigin.

Posted at THURSDAY, JUNE 1 2006 BY onivelnyu

MAY 19,2006 FRIDAY
wow. nice. oracion and ermata r currently being intrviewd by karen and company. hahaha, cool! reaching the peak's no simple feat. hats off to them. hehe

tsktsk. i didnt make it to socio nor to publicad. was above their cut off, 'ges there were just too many people who applied. man! i was pinning my hopes on those two. really wanted to take up socio in diliman. :-( crap. 2 down, 3 more to go. polscie's out this monday, day after, polscie again, this time its manila. busecon as well is scheduled next week. *siiiigh* hell. ges its "bayad po kano" yet again.

really enjoid my time off at bicol. beach, hot spring and mountain climbing. cooool. oh well. planning to watch x3 and dvc this friday, robinson's novalches probably. big loss for sm if you ask me. but i have to say i ws impresed, they stood their ground. cool.

Posted at FRIDAY, MAY 19 2006 BY onivelnyu

APRIL 28,2006 FRIDAY
wuhooo! birthday came and went, now im on my 18th year of existence. hehehehe. astig. di nga lang kami nakalakd, pero ayus lang. hehehe. gid, pagaling ka na! whehehe.

im off to bicol. got to unwind. tsktsk. oh well. gona do some soul searching. *siiigh* wish me luck.^__^

bicol here i come!!!!!!!! ^__^

Posted at FRIDAY, APRIL 28 2006 BY onivelnyu

APRIL 19,2006 WEDNESDAY
peter's blog
ang gastos magpabalikbalik ng clark at manila. sheesh. an init pa man din. gusto ko ng ice cream. mwahahahahaha. nakuha ko na tcg ko kaya lang wala pa din comm2. whehehe. ang init pramis. kahit nakatutok na sakin aircon. hahaha. ginanap ung 2nd Philippine blogging summit kamakailan. astig.

Posted at WENESDAY, APRIL 19, 2006 BY onivelnyu

APRIL 13,2006 THURSDAY
maundy thursday na pla. adik kami. punta kami freedom bar kagabi hanggang hatinggabi (may gig kasi sila Gideon dun). tsktsk. holy week na holy week kung san nagpupunta! taeng propesor, pinapaulit sakin yung term paper ko. parusa. fine fine. hndi nga naman lahat na bibigyan ng "2nd chance". xaxa, mamaya sisimulan ko na uli tp ko. tae naman. tas bukas may prusisyon sa sampaloc. haaaaayz. update na lang uli, pag natapos na lahat ng gawain.

ayus.nakuha ko na class cards ko. shet. hahaha. ok lang, hayest 1.25 lowest 2.5. lolz.gusto ko na magshift. sana lang talaga matuloy ako. huhuhuhu. kapagod mag byahe. next week baka punta din ako lb, try ko econ nila pero syempre diliman p din tlga, kaya lang mas maganda madaming options diba? ehehehe.

been blog hoppin lately, dami din pala mga magagandang blogs na gawang pinoy. eheheh. astig.

oh well. lyf. nxt week n lng uli. hehehe.

Posted at THURSDAY, APRIL 13, 2006 BY onivelnyu

MARCH 24,2006 FRIDAY
may tatlo pa kong papers na kailangan isulat, dalawa sa kanila sa monday na ang deadline, at heto ako nag uupdate ng blog. tinatamad kasi simulan kahit isa sa tatlo. kahapon ung final exam namin sa natscie1, tas kanina lumabas ung list of exemptions, ayun, pinalad naman akong maexempt. 2.5 yung final grade ko,ok na yun, mataas na yun kung tutuusin. madami ding hindi na exempt. oh well, at least dalawa subject na siguradong wala akong finals. ung math14 din pala, 1.75 final grade ko, exempted sa finals na dapat ngayon sana.
ano pa nga ba. hmm.. malapit na birthdya ni kuya, tapos na birthday ni shirlyn, bukas na graduation ni rj, sa monday na deadline ng histo at socscie ko. shet! tinatamaaaaaaaaaad ako. pramis. argh. subukan ko (for the nth time) simulan maya pakatapos ko magupdate. summer naaaaaaa. wala namang pahinga. kahapon ng mga 2-3am nagttxt kami ni gino, busy ako sa pag rereview ko sa natscie, sya naman sa perspectives nya, plate nila sa ust. archi, puro drawing. hehehe.

last sunday(or was it saturday, not sure really) i was browsing the day's PDI and i came across a particular advertisment. Youve probably heard of it by now, the advertisement featured a letter written by one bong austero(open letter to our leaders). After reading the entire thing(man! that was a long letter) i suddenly remembered the position paper i wrote for our second exam in comm; both had a lot of similarities. i was like, geez, and i thought i was the only one feeling that way.

i suggest you try austerio's piece. its worth the read. swear.

Posted at FRIDAY, MARCH 24, 2006 BY onivelnyu

MARCH 17,2006 FRIDAY
ngayon na nga lang ako nakapag post uli, puro pa ka-angst-an. ang gulo. kanina ung last exam namin sa math14, tas sa tues ilalabas yung mga exempted sa finals. hanggang april meron pa kaming gagawin,april 3 pa namin iapapasa yung research paper sa com2. ang bilis. patapos na yung school year. ngayon saobrang gulo ng isip ko. an dami kasing mga na kaambang mga bagay. yung grades, yung shifting, yung course, mga tao. an dami. an gulo. nakaka drain magisip. an dami ko pa gagawin mga papers, book reports tas mga finals. tas eto pa, andami pang mga bagay na gumugulo. confused. tuliro. litong lito. dadalaw ako sa simbahan. tama. si God lang parati. shit. bat ngayon ko lang naisip. kelangan ko ng bagong enerhiya. magulo ngayon. yeah, maybe i really should pass by the church. yeah, ill do that once i get myself some free time. bye for now.
*very much confused:(*

Posted at FRIDAY, MARCH 17, 2006 BY onivelnyu

JANUARY 28,2006 SATURDAY
ok, a month and a day after. really busy ryt now. three consecutive weeks of exams. tired. lotsa papers to finish, deadlines to meet. the sem's nearing its end. only a month more to go. shit. had my first failure. first exam in natscie, passing is 50, i got 42+5 bonus points, yeah, 3 points short of actually passing. crap. conseulo de bobo- i placed 4th, only two guys passed. hell. crazy. next time ill try blogging more. ciao.

Posted at SATURDAY, JANIARY 28, 2006 BY onivelnyu

DECEMBER 27,2005 TUESDAY
weeeeeeeeeeeee tapos na pasko. nyahahahaha. lapit na new year. kaya bago layout, este bago kulay ng layout. nyhaahhah. ung pityur... banaue rice terraces, hehehe. hmm...

nung 25 pumunta kami ng northedsa nuud sana kingkong. kaya lang puro mmff ang andun, kainis, aun, nag exodus n lng tuloy kami. kala ko pa naman un na pinakamaganda sa lahat, sus, ang panget. cinematografi alanganing sepya. tas ung mga gumanap sa mga karakters, tipong.. huh... watever.... tas ang boring pa. hay ewan. basta panget. para sakin panget. ung costume ni jayar parang chinese emperor na hindi naman. si paolo bediones merung ekstensyon ung kamay, di naman sya disabled; merun din sya sa gilid na mga alipores ata yun tas may takip na garapon sa mukha, tas nagsasalita kasabay nya. ewan ko ba, di ko ma decipher kung anu silbi ng mga un tas sa bandang huli nawala ung 2, si paolo na lang natira, weird. tas ung mga taong nakalambitin dun sa kuta ni jayar, tinotorture ba sila o sadyang sinabit lng para may diseño sa kapaligiran?habang nagdurusa ako(eksaj), may tatlo akong muvis na naalala... matrix,troy,lotr. basta.... hmm... konsuelo de bobo may libreng tiket sa enchanted kingdom. ung simulang part, ung sa may rialto, un lang maganda. lolz.

nu na nga ba.... uuh... plano ko punta sa national library w/in this week, para makapagreserts sa term papar ko. la naman kasi kwenta QC library, ang onti ng mga buks. walang libro tunkol kay Ramon Magsaysay, kainis. topic ko, Magsaysay and Estrada administration tas ung mga ginawa nila to adress poverty.

new year's resolution ko magtitipid na ko. parang anghirap nun ah. pero sige, kaya yan, nagset na ko ng goal. masaya un. hmm...

waaaaaaaaaaaaa sa monday na pasukan namiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnnnn. ang agaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa la lng. lolz. oh well. buhay isko. maaga baksyon maaga pasukan. huhuhu. hanggang sa muli n lng hihihih. paalam! ^___^

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Posted at TUESDAY, DECEMBER 27, 2005 BY onivelnyu

DECEMBER 15,2005 THURSDAY
tinatamad mag update kaya ngaun lang uli. hindi alam kung anu ilalagay. magkwekwento na nga lang siguro. bakasyon na, huling klase nung tuesday. bakasyong hindi naman. gagawa ng term papaer, magbabasa ng angels and demons, gagawa ng report sa history. waw! wata bekeyson! pasukan sa january 2. huling sem na tas subok ng lumipat ng diliman. hayz. ang gulo, an daming nangyayari. naguguluhan. di alam kung susuong nnaman o tuluyan na nga lang supilin ang pangangati. kagagaling lang. tapos na ok na. pero may "hangover" pa din. di alam kung handa na ba uli. hopeless romantic?. galing ng alma mater kahapon, nostalgik nanaman. hindi alam kung panu ikukumpara si magsaysay at si erap. biglang naalala, unang taon sa loob ng halos pitong taon na walang fieldtrip. oh well. narepormat ang kompyuter nabura lahat ng files mula 1st year, reaction papers, porn, diary, lahat. inis. wla nanamang pera, paskong pasko wala nanamang pera. patetick. isang kanta....

I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me

di alam kung ano pang itytype. tatapusin na lang. sori, wala ata sa mood.senxa na.

Posted at THURSDAY, DECEMBER 15, 2005 BY onivelnyu

NOVEMBER 02,2005 WEDNESDAY
sembreak came and went. its now less than a week before classes once again resumes. my 1st semester in college is finally over and the 2nd one's about to start.

october 21
rilis nung mga class cards, kasama ko sila gideon, gino, genesis, jester at edel, pati na din si lester at si ace (na nakita naming nag aantabay ng bus sa may north-edsa) at si kuya jon, ng pumunta kami ng pampanga. pagdating namin ng mga 11 am sa skul, ang haba ng pila, kaya lumayas na lang ako (kakatamad pumila,saka yuko paghintayin sila gid sa lomi house, ehehe) pumnta kami ng boarding house, tumambay kami dun for 30minutes, tas uwi na din, pag dating ng manila, deretso kami ng netopia-ever para mag laro ng dota, nyahahah, bagong kaadikan.

october 26
muling lumakad ang barkada, ung totoong lakad na talaga, ehehehe, mcdo-t.sora ng 10.30, nagdatingan ang mga tao(peter, gideon, gino, jester{si genesis, di pinayagan, si ariel, hmm... may klase yung bata, trisem kasi sa ama, sayang, hehe}) mga banda 10.45, ehehehe, nag laro sa peralta ng dota, punta ng ever para mag lunch at mag bowling, kaya lang walang available na lane, kaya di din nakapag laro, deretso ng sm-fairview, punta ng circuit city, pinacheck ni peter yung game boy nya, tas nuud ng Land of the Dead, courtesy of peter and gino, tas naglaro ng dota sa netopia, tas maaga pa sana, kaya lang pinapauwi na si peter pati si gino. wahehehe, kaya ayun, haaaaayz, napaaga kami, mga 11pm ata yun, nasa jollibee-philcoa na kmi ni jester nag hahapunan at unti pang kwentuhan. hmmm...aga, ehehe

october 30
helena's 17th birthday. i tried to reach her on her phone, even tried her mom's and dad's, but unfortunately somethings wrong with the networks, connection and stuff. oh well. Happy Birthday hel! ^___^

october 31
watched a marathon showing of 24's 1st season on studio 23. it started at around 11.30pm and was scheduled to last till 6pm the following day. i didnt get to watch continuously, was able to last only until 5 in the morning, had a few hours of sleep then watched the last 5 episodes. ^___^oh btw, the latest season(the show's 3rd, if im not mistaken)will end this friday. ehehehe

di ko pa kumpleto yung mga class cards ko, 4 pa lang nakukuha ko, uuh... math11 and comm1 sa monday ko pa makukuha, pag balik namin dun for registration. hmm... eto grades ko..
physical education 3
ewan, ehehehe, siguro dala na din ng dami ng handle ni sir garcia na estudyante, at dahil na din siguro sa dalawang abscences ko sakanya, ehehehe. sana badminton na ko this coming sem.. ehehe
history1 2.25
ah, eto masaya. nag pay off kasi yung risk na tinake ko dito. 2.75 kasi yung 1st exam ko, pede ng hndi na mag take ng 2nd exam, sa katunayan nga, ako na lang sa mga pumasa sa 1st exam ang nag take nung 2nd exam. ehehehe, inaverage ung score namin sa 2 exams, ayun, 2.25 yung average ko. ehehe. saya.
natural science2 2
ah eto, exempted na yung finals ko, di na ko nagtake pa uli, baka bumaba pa. ahahaha, saka di na din naman pede. ehehe, next sem, natscie2 naman, physics and chem, pinakagusto at pinakaayaw kong subjects. hehehe social science2 1.25
ah eto din, masaya, isa pa tong risk na nag pay off, exempted na ko sa finals, final grade ko na sana 1.61, pero nag take pa din ako, swerte ko, nahatak, naging 1.25, hehehe. saya. ^___^

gusto na naming magshift talaga, seryoso na, wala ng pa relax relax, target ko din sana mag college scholar kung papalarin. Lester, kaya natin to! kakayanin!. basta importante makalipat next year. yun lang. seryosong aralan na to.

naka chat ko pala si aika nung sang araw, uplb na pala sya, sociology, plan ding lumipat ng upd next year, si vale naman, magaling talaga kahit kailan, hehehe, university scholar ang walah. hahahahaa. idol. astig.

debut ni grace sa nov19, birthday ni mam chiong sa nov13. i already have plans for both occassions, just hope everything goes well.

dami ko nanamang iniisip the past few days. mababaliw na ata ako ng kakaisip. haaay. bahala na. this thing called life.

Posted at WEDNESDAY, NOVEMBER 02, 2005 BY onivelnyu

OCTOBER 07,2005 SATURDAY
pagbigyan nyo na..

minsan lang to...

para sayo...

officially missing you ni tamia

T______________T

All I hear is raindrops, falling on the rooftop... Oh baby, tell me why’d you have to go... Cause this pain I feel it won’t go away... And today I’m officially missin’ you..... I thought that from this heartache, I could escape... But I’ve fronted long enough to know... There ain’t no way... And today I’m officially missing you..... Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you... Said every little thing you do, hey, baby... Said it stays on my mind... And I-I’m officially..... All I do is lay around, two ears full of tears... From looking at your face on the wall ... Just a week ago you were my baby... Now I don’t even know you at all, I don’t know you at all..... Well, I wish that you would call me right now... So that I could get through to you somehow... But I guess it’s safe to say, baby, safe to say... that I-I’m officially missin’ you..... Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you... Said every little thing you do, hey, baby... Said it stays on my mind... And I-I’m officially..... Well, I thought I could just get over you, baby... But I see that’s something I just can’t do... From the way you would hold me... To the sweet things you told me... I just can’t find a way to let go of you..... Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you... Said every little thing you do, hey, baby... Said it stays on my mind... And I-I’m officially..... It’s official... Hoo, you know that I’m missin’ you, yeah, yes... All I hear is raindrops, oh, yeah... And I-I’m officially missin’ you.....

dammit.dammit.dammit. feeling awful right now. damn.T_____________T

the semester's officially over(for me atleast). bumalik ako ng Clark kaninang umaga para magpasa nung multi paragraph esay para sa comm1, tas balik nanaman uli dito sa qc kinahapunan. nagkita kami ni shirlyn sa ever - oo, EVER - namiss ko din ung pandak na yun. hahahah. malaki utang ko sa kanya, shes been there for me for the past two weeks.... basta... the last two weeks... tsk... grabe... hay ewan... salamat lyn... =)....

hanggang dito na lang muna, next time na lang uli. nuud pa ko 24 mamaya. hahaha. next time na yung sa acads at iba pang updates. hahaha. feel like procrastinating... to death. ^___^

Posted at FRIDAY, OCTOBER 07, 2005 BY onivelnyu

SEPTEMBER 24,2005 SATURDAY
huling dalawang linggo na namin bago ang semestral break. andami nanamang exams. sunod sunod na, ngayong linggo mula lunes hanggang miyerkules, 3rd exam sa natscie, 4th exam sa math, at final exam sa history at comm. tas sa sabado naman fieldtrip sa 100 islands, di natuloy last time dahil sa ulan. tsk. sana matuloy na ngayong sabado. ang susunod na linggo pagkatapos nun, exams nanaman, finals naman sa math, natscie at socscie. grabe. dalawang linggo nanaman akong matutulog ng alas kwatro ng madaling araw. kaya ko pa kaya? kakayanin.. *siiigh*

ang tanging kunswelo na lang na iniisip ko yung sembreak, sana makalakad kami nila genesis. miss ko na barkada ng highschool. may kanya kanyang buhay na din kasi. sana lang makalakad kami ng kumpleto sa sembreak.

unang semester ko sa college matatapos na. andami kong natutunan. sobra. andami na din nag bago kung ikukumpara nung highschool. sobra. next time na lang ako gagawa ng entry tungkol dun. *siiiigh*

binalik na samin yung one paragraph essay namin sa comm. 22/30 lang nakuha ko. daming corrections ni maam chia. im suppose to develop the same piece into a multi paragraph essay. pinopobrlema ko kasi medyo madrama yung essay. tae. nagsisisi tuloy ako, sana pala ibang topic na lang ginawan ko ng essay. *siiiigh*

sana talaga mag sembreak na. nakakapagod mag aral. pero di pa din ako nagsasawa, di pa din ako tinatamad. buti na lang. masaya din naman sa pampanga. kabaligtaran nga lang talaga ng buhay hayskul. sobrang iba na talaga. lester. helena. paula. recille. jules. kim. dana. marie. em. almy. kaycee. levi. jayar. cjen. richard. renz. alwin. sarah. noel. jeff. BABE 1A. salamat sa lahat. *siiiigh*

hanggang sa susunod na entry uli. yan ay kung malampasan ko ang susunod na dalawang linggo. hehehe. goodluck din sa finals mo. sana mag kIta tayo sa sembreak. *siiiiigh*

Change Is The Only Constant Thing In Life

Posted at SATURDAY, SEPTEMBER 24, 2005 BY onivelnyu

SEPTEMBER 10,2005 SATURDAY
and so it ends... hahahaha, la na, tapos na dalawang linggo naming pahinga. sa tuesday, exam na sa math, tas sa wednesday naman, 2nd exam na nila lester sa english1. kami naman sa communication1 finals na lang sa 28 ang susunod na exam. tsk, malas naman, sa 28 pa talaga, di tuloy ako makakauwi, birthday pa man din nya, twagan ko na lang siguro. argh. paragraph writing na kami sa comm1 ngayon, binigyan kami ng topic na gagawan namin ng essay. la lng, na astigan lang ako, meron pala kasing process ang pagawa ng essay, yung pre-writing, writing the 1st draft, revising, saka proofreading, eh tae naman kasi, wala nman akong natutunan sa grammar nung nasa highschool pa ko, eh puro lang naman kasi kami literature nun sa diliman. ah, nwei, aun nga, hahaha, yung topic na pinili ni mam sakin, "my perfect day" aun, hahaha, pinasa ko na nung tuesday. ang drama nga eh. hahah. yung isa ko pa lang kaibigan sabi ko gawa sya ng essay tungkol dun, pero free writing lang. di naman tlaga essay, yung tipong, 15 minutes tas sulat ka ng kahit anung maicp mo tungkol sa topic. wlanag pakialamanan sa grammar, kung mali man o tama, pati spelling, basta makapag sulat lang. free writing nga eh. hahaha.post ko yung 1st part nung sinulat nya, hehehe, la lang, naaliw lang kc ako.

My Perfect Day
(first of two parts)

A perfect day for me... uhm, a night with her, walking on the beach, holding each other's hands under the moonlights. talking about funny things that happened to us. Reminiscing happy days with each other, Playing together with the sea water. Chasing each other, Making Laugh at one another, and after that, We sit beside each other, smiling, under the dark blue sky filled with shimmering stars and under the blue moon..... Uhm, haha..... a perfect day.... that's very impossible. I don't know why but I think it's very imposibble. Because of what's happening around us, The people, the situation, I don't know..... (sigh) But, eventhough it's very impossible, it will be the perfect day for me........ a night with my loved one... a night full of hapiness full of memopires which will not be forgotten, a night with her, a night which will complete my life.....Hahaha.....Hahaha.... But will the girl appreciate these? Will she eve come with me. I don't know, hahahaha..... Hahaha.... a very impossible dream, Its hard to reach.

unadulterated straight from the yellow pad,ehehehehehe. hmmm... next tym na lang yung second part. as for my own "perfect day" post ko na lang next time. haaay buhay. fieldtrip pala ng mga Srs sa diliman kahapon,anung petsa na kaya nakauwi yung mga yun, ka text ko kagabi si Cameh, mga 9pm, tas nasa Laguna pa lang daw sila. hahahaha. ayos! mukhang enjoi talaga sila. kaya lang nasiraan daw Kasilag, heheheh. oh well. kami sa Saturday na fieldtrip, sana lang matuloy talaga yung overnight. tsk. nakakabwisit kasi block, la kwenta kasi mga officers, paka iresponsable, di tuloy maayos yung setup. tae. oh well.

mag rereview pa ko sa Math, sige na. hanggang dito na lang siguro, hahaha, hmm... isang linggo nanaman akong hindi makakahawak ng computer! hahaha! oh well! ganun tlga! hanggang sa muli.

Posted at SATURDAY, SEPTEMBER 10, 2005 BY onivelnyu

SEPTEMBER 04,2005 SUNDAY

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
sayaaaaaaaaa koooooooooooooooo.
thx for everything bhe!
^____^

last week na naming pahinga to, next week exam nanaman sa math. buti na lang naka 2.25 ako sa last exam dun, tas sa natscie naman 2 ako sa last exam din. kahit papano nag pay off yung mga pag pupuyat ko. kaya lang medyo nanganganib ako sa comm1, just above passing lang ako, 62%, hahaah midterm grade ko un, hahaha. nung friday pala ung last day of dropping. madami nag drop sa block. thursday night, kanya kanya tawag sa mga magulang humihingi ng payo kung mag drodrop daw ba o hindi. iyakan nanaman. oh well.... ganito buhay samin. oh well.... buti na lang kahit papano ako medyo ok pa ang standing, yung comm medyo sablay, pero atleast la pa kong bagsak talaga, kaya to! kakayanin!

"UP?!,tangna! yUPian to ng utak!"

Posted at SUNDAY, SEPTEMBER 04, 2005 BY onivelnyu

AUGUST 26,2005 FRIDAY
buti na lang natapos na tong linggong to. sobrang nakakapagod. dalawang exams nung wednesday, math11 at socscie2, tas kinabukasan natscie2 naman. tas ung results ng hist1 nabigay na, 2.75 ako, andaming nakakuha ng 3 pababa. si lester 3. ung result ng eng1 nila na release na, di kaayaaya. yung test sa socscie at natscie pamatay, sabagay ano nga naman bang hindi pamatay dito sa unibersidad na ito.ung sa comm nailabas na din pala, kasi nag 2nd exam kami last week, 2.5 ako. ang gulo na. ang hirap. patayan na dito samin. nahihirapan na kami lahat. nag sisiiyakan na mga tao samin. dami ng na dedepres. tsk. nakakapanibago lahat. iba na talaga ngayon. ibang iba na.

sa 40 oras na rekwayrd na tulog sa isang tao sa loob ng 5 araw, 15 lang ang nagawa ko. patayan itong linggong lumipas na ito. sobrang pasalamat kami na natapos na at nalampasan namin. 2 linggo lang ang pahinga namin, math exam nnman uli 2 linggo mula ngaun. shet. nakakainis. uko naaaaaaaaaah putaaaaa ang hiraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaap. ang lulupit ng mga prof. sobraaaa. maaga na ang alas tres ng madaling araw na tulog sakin, tas gigising ako ng alas siete para pumasok. tangina. ang hiraaaaaap. kung sa iba physical torture, dito physical at mental torture!

ika nga ni lester, "UP?!,tangna! yUPian to ng utak!"

Posted at FRIDAY, AUGUST 26, 2005 BY onivelnyu

AUGUST 09,2005 TUESDAY

im tired. tired of everything. dont they ever get tired? doesnt she ever get tired?

never lose hope... never lose your concentration... focus on your goal... dont mind them... pretend you dont see them... be stoic... dammit.

when is enough,enough? will she ever learn to let go ?will she ever learn to accept things the way they are? she's making a fool out of herself. none of these are permanent, everythings finite. yeah, everything. she just doesnt get it, doesnt she?.

everything's monotonous. tired of it. fucking tired

im down on my knees. once proud and condescending. now forced to realize and accept reality. forced to accept the way things are.

Raul Roco is dead. the best president this country never had.

dammit.

kanina ang 1st major exam namin sa hist1, nagbigay ng dalawang tanong, pumuli kami ng gusto naming sagutin, pinili ko yung unang tanong, "talakayin ang mga layunin ng Amerika sa pagsakop nito sa Pilipinas", binaggit ko ang limang "d", dollars, defense, destiny, duty & deity.bala na kung ilan ang iskor ko dun. im preparing myself for the worse, that particular prof of ours has quiet a reputation in handling out "singkos". inilibas kanina ang resulta ng nakaraan naming departamental exam sa math11, 3/4 ng block namin ang bumagsak. ang passing ay 60%, walo ang nakakuha ng 50% pataas, lima ang nakakuha ng 60% pataas. si levy ang pinakamataas, 98%, pangapat si lester, 77%, panglima ako, 69%. the whole class was obvouisly disappointed, save for a few who still manage to crack a joke or two. we werent expecting much naman na talaga, kasi mahirap naman talaga yung exam kaya lang kasi, iba pa din talaga pag andyan na sa harap mo yung mga resulta. nakakainis. ewan. basta. letche.

Gideon, Keshia and Gino are all having their preliminary exams this week to last till next week. hope you guys get unos. :)

kaya nyo yan! kayo pa! prelims lang yan! heheh! ika mo nga gid, "appetizer pa lang ang lahat ng ito", the worst is yet to come, eheheh! :) astig! :) goodspeed :)

angst. angst. angst. as always.

Posted at TUESDAY, AUGUST 09, 2005 BY onivelnyu

JULY 17,2005 SUNDAY
taglish mode(part2).
update. di na ko makapg update, medyo busy sa school. nag test kami sa natscie2 nung isang araw. nag review ako, kaya lang mukhang sasablay ako ng onti, nakakainis kasi, ung pinag tesan namin na room, katabi kasi nun, may nagkaklase na mga Psych, e interesante pa man din yung dinidiscuss nila na topic, introvert extrovert ekek, malamang psych eh, syempre interesante talaga. kaya aun, medyo di ako nakapag concentrate ng maagi dun sa test. lolz. ewan ko n lng kung ilan ako dun. bukas ko malalaman, bukas pa lang kasi ilalabas yung results. nanuod kami kahapon nila gideon at jester ng pinoy blonde. astig yung movie. alas onse ng gabi nasa jollibee regalado(yun pa la yung regalado, nun ko lang nalaman, ang alam ko lang kasi, "fcm" ang tawag sa lugar na yun, lolz.salamat sa resibo ng jollibee) pa kami, sampung minuto bago mag alas dose ng hattinggabi nasa philcoa na ko. an saya kahapon. kahit tatlo lang kami. walang katapusang kwentuhan, alaskahan at payabanga. astig.
sa martes exam na namin sa comm1, kinabukasan non, sa miyerkules naman sa math11 naman, eto na, tsktsk, nangangatog na lahat, kinakabahan na lahat. seryosong usapan na to, di na pede pa relax relax. haaaaaay. basta ako, plano ko mag shift next year, kailangan ko magshift next year. hay ewan.
letche, la pa din akong pera, pulubi mode pa din ako hanggang ngayun, andami pa man ding gastusin, andaming mag diriwang ng kanilang kaarawan. gastos gastos gastos gastos. la namang pera pera pera pera pera. haaaay ewan. bala na si batman. lolz.
bagong hitsura ng blog, nyehehehe. pra di na biased. ehehehe. sana mabasa na mga entries ko. lolz.
plano kong di umuwi buong linggo, kasi nga may test dun sa math11, kaya lang, ewan, sana kayanin. sheesh. redio boi nanaman ako. ok lang. lolz. oh well. gtg na nga, aayusin ko pa tong blog ko. lolz.
argh. im sopathetic.

Posted at SUNDAY, JULY 17, 2005 BY onivelnyu

JULY 6,2005 WEDNESDAY
taglish mode.
hmm... la kong magawa. dito ako qc, la kami pasok ngayun, wednesday eh. ehehehe. hmm... ano nga ba?.an lakas ng ulan the past few days, kala ko nga lubog nanaman ang metro manila. hehehe. onting ulan lubog na buong kamaynilaan. sa pampanga, uuh... ok naman, kahapon nga lang medyo nakakainis kasi supposed to be, 4 subject namin, magsisimula sa comm1 ng 8.30, tas socscie ng 10.00 tas 1.5 hr break, tas hist1 ng 1.00 tas math11 ng 2.30 tas uwian ng 4. comm1,wala si mam chia, baka kasi umuulan nga kahpon, tas galing pa sya ng manila, kaya di na na pumsok, ewan, tas yung socscie nman, malay ko ba dun baka na ligaw nnman ng room, kaya di kami sinipot. wakekekek. tas ung hist naman,di din nagklase kasi pinasok kami ng mga tibak(aktibista), sila daw ay ang League of Filipino Students. ano pa nga ba, edi ang tungkol sa wiretapping ni GMA, (must resist......) change topic. (yes!lolz) yun, bale ang naging 1st subject namin ay ang math11, alas dos y medya ng hapon nagsimula ang unang klase ko, samantalang alas otso pa lang eh andun na ko. la lng, kasi, sayang sa oras eh. la lng.. lolz. tas la na ko pera, kaya eto, balik nanaman ako dito sa qc. nyahahah. oh well.. hmm.. nakita ko pala si reggie gonzaga nung 'sang araw sa philcoa, hayuf!,BS Math ang walah!. hahaha!. ng hahagilap ako ng mga dilimanians, kahit sino, basta dilimanian!. nakita ko din pala si edjohn sa philcoa din, pero mtgaaal na yun, a couple of weeks ago, if im not mistaken, feu morayta, archi, pla sya, asteg. nyahaha, naalala ko tuloy si gino,(ust-archi) gumastos daw sya ng 500 sa bawat isang "pen", tas 4 na "pen", nyahaha. do the math. lolz. oh well, next wednesday, magpapa id na kami buong block, samsama kami dito sa updil,(parang timang, kasi dapat dito pa tlga mag pa id, oh well..)kami ni lester ang kanilang "host", waheheheh. nyahaha! parang masaya yun ah, parang fieldtrip ng block!. hmmm.... mukhang masaya?. eksayted!. wakekeke. bukas gigising uli ako ng maaga, kasi 1st subject ko PE, (puñemaasssss naiinis tlga ko, kc balibol pe ko!!! sana badminton na lng. huhuhuh)alas otso yun. ehehehe. ay grabeh, tas friday, dito nanaman ako para sa 24, la kasing tv dun, huhuhuh, radio boi nga ako the past 2 days eh, napakinggan ko tuloy yung congressional hearings tungkol nga dun sa wiretapping ni GMA,(ressssiiiiissst....)nwei, (yeah!)ayun, so uuh... ah!, si jeremy sabi mas better daw ComScie sa kanila sa tip, kaya nag dadalawang isip daw syang lumipat ng up, pero gusto daw nya lumipat. haaaay, lipaaaaat. oh well... hmm.. ano pa nga ba?, ayun na lang siguro. hmm... paka walang kwentang entry. wakekekeke. lolz. waaaaa, naalala ko, la na pala ako lowd, tas may utang pa ko kay gid. tsktsktsk. im broke!!!!!! help!!!!!!!!. wakekekek. lolz. hanggang sa muli!

"The notion of ignoring evil to accomplish good is fundamentally suicidal, and is the one thing that has repeatedly laid this country low...What is wrong with that notion is not just that when you tolerate evil, evil riots to a point where it completely blots out the good you expect to achieve. You allow someone with a track record of ruthless pillage to continue ruling in the hope things will not get worse, things will get worse. But even more than that, you keep tolerating evil for whatever reason, you yourself change to a point where your capacity to tolerate evil knows no bounds. No, where you are no longer able to recognize evil at all."

-Conrado De Quiros

Posted at WEDNESDAY, JULY 06, 2005 BY onivelnyu

JULY 3,2005 SUNDAY
exhausted. as always.
huwebes ng gabi natulog ako sa pampanga. unang gabi ko dun. tinapos ko muna yung asyanment ko sa comm1 tas naglibot ako sa bayan ng mabalacat. nag withdraw muna ako ng pera sa bangko tas linakad ko papunta sa pinakamalapit na jollibee parang kumain ng hapunan.(distansya mula sa bangko patungo sa jollibee ay gaya ng layo mula dps hanggang shell sa commonwealth ave.) linibot ko din ung mall na kinatatayuan ng jollibee, tas muli kong tinahak pabalik ng bangko at naghanap ng malapit na kompyuteran, nag kompyuter ako hanngang alas dyis y medya ng gabi. umuwi dahil na takot masaraduhan sa bahay.
galing kami nung isang araw sa registrar's ng up diliman. mag papa id sana kami, kasama ko si lester pati si jester( magkaibang tao yun. lolz) kaya lang di din natuloy. andun naka post yung rules and regulations tungkol sa mga transferees. shet. pero kasi plano kong mag shift sa upmanila, kaya di ko pa nakikita yung rules and regulations nang lilipatan kong kurso. paglabas namin ng registrar's napaisip tuloy ako, sino nga kaya talaga sa mga kakilala ko ang talagang makakapag shift next year. dati madami nag sasabi na lilipat nga daw sila. ewan. madami din kasing pwedeng mang yari sa loob ng isang taon. pero ok lang. come what may. kanya kanya namang desisyon yan.

"God gave all of us the chance to choose. it is for us to decide what we want. we decide things for ourselves on the condition that we stand by that decision, no matter what consequences it might bring"

malapit na uaap. ika syam daw ng hulyo ang simula sabi ni gideon. magiging masaya to, kanya kanya school na. lolz. astig. bala na. ust at up daw ang unang maglalaban sabi nila. astig. goodluck na lang sa lahat. lolz
reality check(yet again). just when you thought everything was going smoothly, reality comes barging in. It hurts knowing your doomed to suffer whatever it is your trying to run away from or pretend not knowing about, for the rest of your goddamn life. it hurts, knowing there's nothing you could do about it Its frustrating, very much. give me fantasy anytime, reality sucks.
bukas balik na uli ako sa pampanga, dapat ngayun, kaya lang dami ko pa dapat gawin. lolz. hanggang sa muli. paalam!

Posted at SUNDAY, JULY 03, 2005 BY onivelnyu

JUNE 25,2005 SATURDAY
dito pa din ako sa kalakhang manila. bukas ko pa makikita ang magiging tirahan ko sa susunod na syam na buwan(yan ay kung matuloy ang plano kong lumipat sa up manila)
thursday night i was able to chat with shirlyn. its been a while since we had a conversation. as always, chatting with shirlyn gave me a chance to unwind. shes studying at mapua. the following is an excerpt from our conversation. smilies dont appear when i pasted our conversation, blanks took their place.

shirlyyyn deeee: Ok great it's cool. BTW, did you know that wrinkles form when you act all snotty? La lang, just a fact.
ivan:
ivan: damn.
ivan: napaatawa mo ko
ivan: argh.
ivan: lolzzz
ivan: thanks
shirlyyyn deeee: Talaga? I was actually aiming to piss you off by acting cheerful, but hey, cheering you off is cool too.
ivan: argh. kainis ka. badrip ako simula pagdting ko form pmpnga tas plano ko mag pout the whole nyt tas pinatawa mo ko
ivan:
ivan: astig ka tlga
ivan:
shirlyyyn deeee: tlga you just came from pampanga? grabe ka ah, bilib tlg ako sa moody attitude mo, one week plang and you get to pick something you hate and moan about that.
shirlyyyn deeee: or is it two weeks? ah ewan , basta kakapasok mo plang.
shirlyyyn deeee: hay nako, once you realize frowning causes pimples & facial distortions you stop doing that.
ivan: u dont knw 1/2 of it
ivan: iuve been commuting for the past 3 weeks(yeah, 3 weeks na po ) to and from papmnga. nakakapaogd. nabubuwisit na tlga ko. sa parents. sa studies. hay. lahat. la lng. sabi sau, i ws hvng a bad day , hahaha. but nwei, pinsaya mo nman ako eh. thx fr that
shirlyyyn deeee: Lam mo basta you have all your body parts in tact and you eat atleast once a day, i consider that at least an acceptable life, and having an acceptable life is ok with me. not worth moaning about... eh since you're Ivan, I expect na ganyan ka nga, mag mo-moan about thiss....
shirlyyyn deeee: eh buti nga ikaw may pang commute eh. pano pag wala?
shirlyyyn deeee: Hehehehe.
ivan: un na nga eh
ivan: wla na ko pera
ivan: eh pano ba naman
ivan: 500/day gastos ko
ivan: namulubi tuloi ako
ivan:
shirlyyyn deeee: OMG! Malungkot ka nga!
shirlyyyn deeee: Ako nga pineperahan ko si Yabes eh. Hahaha. Namimiss daw ako, so kahit umutang ako ng 500 ok lang!
shirlyyyn deeee: tapos pambili lang nya ng ATLAS and UNIFORM (5) 3.5k na binigay sa kanya.
shirlyyyn deeee:
ivan: lolz.
ivan: musta na yun
ivan: musta na daw buhay uste nya
shirlyyyn deeee: ewan ko, i expect it's yucky.
ivan: yucky eh?
ivan: hehehe
shirlyyyn deeee: oo naman. So yun, haaayyy, ako BUM!
ivan: lolz
ivan: july b nman eh noh
ivan: lolz
shirlyyyn deeee: oo nga eh. haaayyyy. ikaw? masarap ba malayo sa civilization?
shirlyyyn deeee: well- based on your bad mood- pero I HAVE to ask
ivan: i dunno...
ivan: kasi..
ivan: un nga, uwian p din me, so di ko p tlga na eenjoi ng as-in ung "exiled exprence" pero dis weekend maglilipat n me. for good. nwei, aun... ah, ok lng nman, kaya lang ang init kasi eh. an sarap ma2log pag on going ung klases. aun .... ok lng nman.... kaya pa.... ewan ko lng pag dun na me nktra,kc la dun tv and computer, ewan ko kung panu me mag susurvieve. oh well...
shirlyyyn deeee's status is now "Available". (6/23/05 9:07 PM)
shirlyyyn deeee: ha?
ivan: ?
shirlyyyn deeee: kla ko may sinabi ka. anyhow... hmm... every week ka ba umuuwi?
ivan: shirlyyyn deeee: oo nga eh. haaayyyy. ikaw? masarap ba malayo sa civilization?
shirlyyyn deeee: well- based on your bad mood- pero I HAVE to ask
ivan: i dunno...
ivan: kasi..
ivan: un nga, uwian p din me, so di ko p tlga na eenjoi ng as-in ung "exiled exprence" pero dis weekend maglilipat n me. for good. nwei, aun... ah, ok lng nman, kaya lang ang init kasi eh. an sarap ma2log pag on going ung klases. aun .... ok lng nman.... kaya pa.... ewan ko lng pag dun na me nktra,kc la dun tv and computer, ewan ko kung panu me mag susurvieve. oh well...
shirlyyyn deeee: WALANG PC?!
shirlyyyn deeee: OR TV man lang?!
ivan: yeah
ivan: so sad
ivan: but true
ivan: oh well
shirlyyyn deeee:
shirlyyyn deeee: OMG. Kaya pla maraming preggies dun! DUDE, daming preggies sa batch natin pla.
ivan: o?
ivan: sino2?
ivan: astig.
shirlyyyn deeee: ASTIG! No its not astig. Napaka sad nga eh.
ivan: yeah. sad
ivan: pero gnun eh
ivan: its der choice. oh well
shirlyyyn deeee: OO nga! WHEW. Isipin mo, 17 and have a baby na.
ivan: yeah
ivan: npka iresponsable
shirlyyyn deeee: Yeah yeah. Hay nako, the lust and hormones, really does that to teens.
ivan: anung kinabuksan ang naghihintay para sa magiging anaka nya?. puñeta. di kasi iniicp ung bata eh. paka iresponsble.
ivan: lust and hormons pede nman ikontrol eh
ivan: nsa tao tlga
ivan: tsktsk
shirlyyyn deeee: Haayyy I have to agree with you, mr grumpy. Eh that's their choice eh. LAM MO BA, yung mga dad, wants to abort! ABORT! GRABE. Kill his own kid.
ivan: b4 killing the kid. he shud get hmself killed 1st
ivan: gag0 xa
ivan: xa dapat mamty di ung bata.
ivan: tsk.
shirlyyyn deeee: OO nga eh. 6 months na kid. SIX! Dude, that's SO inhuman. OK lang pra sa rape victims, my sympathies. PERO accidental like that, shocks.
ivan: mind telling me hus lyf wer talking bout hir/
shirlyyyn deeee: Ay nko, can't really. I promised not to tell WHO.
ivan: ok
ivan: not a prob
ivan: shit sya
shirlyyyn deeee: Pero kung kaw ba you'll kill your kid?
ivan: hindi. kasi una sa lahat di ako bibigay sa temptations
shirlyyyn deeee: Hay nako. And to think na it's 6 months. SIX! Dude that can actually survive pag pinanganak mo na. Argh. Well you'll never know, besides sinong nagsabing NGAYON, huh? Pano kung sa future. Well it doesn't matter, murder is murder! Sana pinandigna nya
shirlyyyn deeee: Lam mo ba rason nya? Kasi daw... SIYA PAGASA NG PAMILYA NYA. KYA NYA PINAPAPATAY kid niya. ivan: yeah ur ryt. ur damn ryt. hndi, hndi ko papa abort
ivan: puneta ,kung kilala ko lng un lyn naku, baka kung anu masbi ko sknya. pagasa ng pamilya, gag0,lam nman pla nya na sya lang inaashan eh bkit sya gagawa ng isang bagay na di nman nya kayang panindigan!
ivan: &^%$#&^%@$&^^%$@(
shirlyyyn deeee: YUn nga eh. Ganyan nman tlg! After makipag sex... Tska lang iisipin ung consequences... Grabe. Tapos napaka LAME ng reason nya.
shirlyyyn deeee: Pathetic tlg. PATHETIC.
shirlyyyn deeee: Lam mo ba may batchmate tyo nanganak na, 3 months old na kid nya. 3 months na din sya inabandon ng tatay. na ka BATCH din natin DATI.
ivan: yeah. he is. &^%$&#^@& naiinis talaga ako s mga taong hndi muna iniicp ung mga ggwin nila bago gumwa ng katarntduhan, lalo na ung mga taong hindi kayang panindigan ung mga bagay na sya din nman may kagagawan. ^%^$^%$#@^ all of us are given the ryt to choose, it is for us to decide what we want. we decide things for ourselves on the cndition that we standby that decision, no matter what consequences it myt bring. puñeta tlga
ivan: puta
ivan: hndi tunay n mga lalaki ung mga yun
shirlyyyn deeee: Sinabi mo pa! KOREK! It's so surprising no, how things suddenly become this, parang dati we're just HIGHSCHOOLS.
shirlyyyn deeee: HIGHSCHOOLERS pla.
ivan: im not surprsed actually
ivan: ewan
ivan: pero kasi
ivan: xpcted ko nman n mga gnung bagay eh
ivan: s panahon ngaun
ivan: anythng cud happen
ivan: even the least u xpect
ivan: to the least pipol u xpect
ivan: tsk
shirlyyyn deeee: anyhow, it all happens so fast. Suicide (yes may case din ata tyo, ), sex, pregnancies.Anyhow, it's not really that. It's to expect the unexpected, but I STILL get shocked to see it actually happen. Lam mo yun? You know it can happen but you can NEVER stop getting shockd if it ACTUALLY happens.
ivan: yeah
ivan: iba pa din cgro tlga pag nandjan na, ngyri na tlga asin
ivan: sa isang ka kilala mo
ivan: oh well
ivan: see the qoute?
shirlyyyn deeee: Dude, sa friend mo pa. HAY, shocks tlga. Grabe. Tska- isipin mo nkikita mo sa skul madalas, senior gatherings, pinaglalamayan na bigla.
ivan: argh.
shirlyyyn deeee: Yeah, I agree with the quote. Atleast di ka na badmood about yourself, badmood kna towards others. Improvement.
ivan: yeah, again, thanks to you
shirlyyyn deeee: no prob, magaling ako dyan, veering anger towards others.
ivan:
ivan: people are people
ivan: parang gs2 ko punthan ung ka batch nating un tas suntukin ng malakas.
ivan: naiinis talaga ako.
shirlyyyn deeee: Ay buti ka pa, may physical action. Atleast justified ung brutal action mo.
shirlyyyn deeee: Sige samahan kita, bugbugin mo, hanggang shoulder mo lang nman un eh
shirlyyyn deeee:
ivan: tangina talaga.
shirlyyyn deeee: Hay nako, ewan ko nga kung ntloy abortion. MY GOSH im so thankful i didn't get to go through that. worrying is enough!
ivan: ka batch b n10 both?
ivan: sila?
shirlyyyn deeee: yeah. sadly.
ivan: shit.
shirlyyyn deeee: One didn't get abortion, though.
shirlyyyn deeee: ONe's thinking bout is
shirlyyyn deeee: ONe's thinking bout it
ivan: the latter shud be ashamed of herslef. very ashamd.
shirlyyyn deeee: well the dad's forcing her.
ivan: WHAT THE?!
ivan:
ivan:
ivan:
ivan:
ivan:
ivan:
shirlyyyn deeee: Yeah yun nga, yung inaasahan siya ng pamilya nya guy
shirlyyyn deeee: he has serious issues bout family, hehe, bobo, doesn't think his sperm counts ivan: puta. sinu ba kasi tong &^%$^# na to
shirlyyyn deeee: sorry kid no can do. whoops, gota go.
shirlyyyn deeee: bye bye!
ivan: andaming alternatives puta. di ba nya naicp na hndi lang naman ang pag aabort ang paraan??! duuh. kung ayaw nyang mag claim ng responsibility eh di pa ampon nila sa bahay ampunan. putah
ivan: ha?
ivan: ok
shirlyyyn deeee: HAy nako, he doesn't want his parents to know.
ivan: kla ko b lam n nung tatay nya?
shirlyyyn deeee: Ok cge, pag gs2 mong tulungan kitang i-veer anger mo towards others jsut tell me.
ivan: lolz
ivan:
ivan: thanks
shirlyyyn deeee: Indeh di lam ng parents nya. THe other guys his family knows yung nakapanganak na ung girl. Pero ito, super duwag.
shirlyyyn deeee: Ok ok, bye ingat.
ivan: ah ic
ivan: ok bye ingat
ivan:
ivan: thanks

tsktsk... oh well....what a waste.... *siiiiigh*

Posted at SATURDAY, JUNE 25, 2005 BY onivelnyu

JUNE 23,2005 THURSDAY
im fucking tired. as always. all i could do is complain. fuck. fuck. fuck. well atleast my suffering's bound to end a little sooner than i expected, ill start moving this weekend. yeah, moving for good. im leaving the capital for good. Finally.

sheit. ngayun lang uli ako nakahawak ng kompyuter, kainis, sira nanaman yung kompyuter namin sa bahay. puñemas. di tuloy ako makapag update. bukas walang pasok ang mga taga manila, kasi ipinagdiriwang nila ang araw ng maynila. bukas orientasyon din naming mga sariwanglalake(freshmen argh. ang korneh ko) pero hindi ako pupunta, kasi gusto kong bumalik ng dps bukas. babalik kami ni gideon genesis at jester at keshia, lahat sila nag aaral sa manila. argh. kainis. tas mag lalaro kami ng Command and Conquer Generals kasi lalayas na ko dito. dun na ko sa pampanga muna. koneksyon?! la lng. lolz. hay. ewan.

hah! nagpalipat ako ng PE ko!, asteg. bali ang PE ko, na balibol ay tuwing Huwebes na lang 2 oras. bali sa Lunes, Natural science lang ang asignatura ko. ayus!. di ko na kailngang pumasok nang pag kaaga aga. kaya lang mga taga ikalawang taon - Psychology ang mga kaklase ko. hay. ok na yun, kumpara naman dun sa dating kong iskedyul. grabe. la pa din talaga kapantay si sebastian (propesora namin sa socscie) sa pagiging kaantok antok. mukhang sumusuko na si ignacio(propesora din namin, sa hist nman) sa kanilang laban, ng huli kaming mag kita ni ignacio, di nya napapikit ang aking mga mata. kahit papano medyo nasa tama akong pagiisip nung nag sesermon sya(sermon?hndi lektyur?lolz). sa math11 astigin. kasi nung una naming pag susulit medyu na dalian ako, kaya lang sumablay nang isa, hahaha, di ko kasi na basa ung tungkol dun sa partikular na sagot na yun, ayun, kaya nagkamali ako. hahahahaha

si jeremy nga pala nag blogdrive na diiiiiiiiiiin! astigin nga eh!

WELCOME TO THE BLOGOSPHERE DUDE!

nyahahhaa. paki bisita nman blag nya o!. hehehe!

argh. dami ko pa gusto ikwento. hmmm... pag na ayus ko na paglipat ko, hahagilap ako ng kompyuer shap tas mag aapdeyt ako. nyahahah. pero sa ngayun, out na muna ako., nyahahha. wow, lakas nang ulan sa labas, buti pa dito umuulan, sa pampnga ang ineeeeeeeeeeeeeeeht. oh well....

masakit malamang di ka kayang ipaglaban ng taong mahal mo.

Posted at THURSDAY, JUNE 23, 2005 BY onivelnyu

JUNE 19,2005 SUNDAY
update! update! aaargh. 2nd week nakakapagod. as in. ayan na... napapagod na ko sa kaka komyut. grabe. pagdating ko dito sa haws, bagsak agad. kain, tas nuud ng naruto, tas tulog. waaaaaa. grabe, kawawa naman. ako. huhuhu. tapos sandamakmak na ung mga asaynments at tests. grabe talagaaaa. eto na nga ang kalej. haaay. pero mas malala ung kanila Gideon, unang linggo pa lang an dami na agad mga asaynments. as in andami talaga. tas si Keshia din, grabe, merun sila subject na philippine government constitution, parang sort of political science na din. yung mga readings nila ang hahaba. tas si gid den, an dami din assayns. hay. bat ganun? bat parang mas mahirap ata sa ust?. nyeak. hmm.... ok din lang naman samin, ayun nga, dami na ding asaynments, malulupet kasi mga prof namin eh. parating sukdulan, yung sa math11, sukdulan ng talino si Dr. Pizaño, yung sa SocScie1 at Histo1, nag tatagisan sila para sa titulo ng sukdulan sa ka boringan. pero may panglaban na ko dun, kasi parating pumipikit mga mata ko sa kanila eh, kaya prating may nginunguya akong kendi. nyahaha! merun akong kaklase na taga upis, merun akong kaklase na 20 yrs old na halimaw 96 ba naman ang grade sa math sa upcat!halimaw,merun akong kaklaseng parang si aika, merun akong kaklaseng parang si julius cruz, merun akong kaklseng kasing ganda ni michelle ng SCQ. lolz la lng.... haaaay.... katapusan pa ko ng June lilipat for good. in short, matagal tagal pa kong magdurusa. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. oh well. lyf sucks!. as owayz. ahahahaha!.

Posted at SUNDAY, JUNE 19, 2005 BY onivelnyu

JUNE 13,2005 MONDAY
First Week Funk(uli...)
ayun... ah. masaya skedyul ko. eto o:

Lunes / Huwebes 2 na asignatura, isa sa umaga isa sa hapon, 8.00am-2.30pm

Martes / Byernes 4 na asignatura, 2 sa umaga, 2 sa hapon, 8.30am-4pm

masaya ang unang araw, bigayan ng klas kards, pakilalanan ng mga propesor, at ng mga asignatura. hay kalej. ibang iba nga talaga sa hayskul. maluwag ang up, bibigyan ka nila ng kalayaan(hindi na nakapagtataka kung bakit up ang tinuturing na pugad ng student activism)bahala ka sa buhay mo. kung responsable ka, hindi ka "maliligaw ng landas", ngunit kung ikaw ang kabaligtaran, eh malamang "maliligaw ka nga ng landas" (argh. ang korneh). ayus. may plano ako pag katapos nung unang araw ko sa upepp, naisipan ko, hmmm.... bat di kaya ako mag shift to nerd-mode nyahahahaha. yung tipong parating magisa, nagdurusa ang soxal layp, at sa unang tingin e halatang walang ibang inaatupag kundi ang magaral. hmm.... pwede!, sa katunayan nga, na simulan ko na. nyahaha. hmm... wla akong kasamang mag lunch, pag bakanteng oras naman tambay sa silid aklatan. hmm....papasa kaya ako bilang isang nerd? hmmm.... kung magkataon, kabaligtaran yun ng hayskul layp ko. nyahaha. aus, for a change hala... wakekekeke.

Gideon, Gino, Grace, Keshia, Julio, Thelma, Peter, Jeremy, Michael C., and Jester will be experiencing their first day in college less than 24 hours from now. The first seven at UST, while Jeremy and Michael C.'s at TIP and Jester's at PUP. Oh well. Classes have also resumed at DPS, my home for the past 11 years, alot of changes (and i mean a lot) have been made back their. argh. I do realize the fact that nothing's meant to last forever, but crap, letting go has never been easy. And never will be, i guess. Goodluck guys. The first week is always the adjusting period. You'll get used to it (i should tell that to myself more often. Haha!) somehow. ^__^ Atleast you don't have to go through all the crap i went through. Argh. Commuting from the city to the province is such a pain in the ass. Oh well...

grabe,sobrang bisi na talaga, sana makapag tantra ako ngaung myerkules. na mimis ko na tantra. nyahahaha. yung math11 ko na asaynment, hattinggabi ko sinimulan, alas kwatro ng madaling araw ko natapos. hahahah!. haaay... hanggang sa muli!

Posted at MONDAY, JUNE 13, 2005 BY onivelnyu

JUNE 13,2005 MONDAY
First Week Funk
masaya ngunit nakakapagod. andaming bago. asin. ang aking rutin sa nakalipas na isang linggo. tulog ng maaga, mga alas onse ng gabi, gising ng alas kwatro, init ng ulam, saing ng bigas, kain, inom ng bitamina, ligo, bihis, komyut. haaaay.... eto na, sakay fx, baba edsa(haaaaay edsa), lakad ng ilang metro(patungo sa sakayan ng bus), tumambay ng mangilang minuto at maghintay ng bus na may tatak na DAU(oo, madalas all caps ang mga signus na nakasabit sa harapan ng mga bus), pag nakasakay na, mag sasayn op da kros, at magdadasal na sana makarating sa tamang oras.lilipas ang halos 2 oras(^$@&!* na mga bus yan, sadyang di lalarga hanggat di napupuno ang kanilang pinapasadang bus,tuloy pagsakay ko ng bus, mga 45 minuto pa bago magsimula ang tunay na byahe, ung babagtasin ang kahabaan ng nlex[north luzon expressway way] habang nakikinig sa mga kantang sumikat ng kapanahunan na aking mga ninuno),baba sa dau terminal(kung saan naka segregeyt ang mga bus, sa kaliwang bahagi ng terminal, mga patungong probinsya, habang sa kanang bahagi naman, mga pabalik sa kabihasnan,sa ciudad),lakad ng ilang metro(uli),sakay ng jip na may tatak Main Gate(main gate ng czes[clark special economic zones,ay lab akronims,nyahahha!]),bababa,sakay ng jip patungong up,baba sa harapan ng upepp sabay bulong na sana hindi pa nagsisimula ang klase, pagkatapos ng klase, uwi agad. komyut nanaman.... yan ang buhay ko sa nakalipas na isang linggo at malamang lamang pati na din sa susunod pangg linggo, bakit?, mahal daw kasi masyado yung bahay na nahanap kaya todo komyut muna habang nag hahanap ng bagong bahay. hay buhay. ewan

Posted at MONDAY, JUNE 13, 2005 BY onivelnyu

JUNE 4,2005 SATURDAY
Consumatum est.

may katagalan din akong hindi nakapag update ah. sobrang busy kasi ako the past few weeks. daming kailangang asikasuhing bagay bagay. haaay.... UP na talaga ako.. tapos na... final na... naka limang balik na kami ng Pampanga, uuh.. nagconfirm, nag test, nag enroll, nag hanap ng tiitrhan. ah! yun, astig, galing kasi kami dun kanina, naghanap nga nG titirhan, ung nahanap namin, hmm... bahay, 2 floors, kasama ko dun si kuya jon2, pero maghahanap sya ng trabaho dun, kaya madalas ako lang sa bahay. haaaaay, kaya ko kaya tumagal dun? lang TV, lang computer....

ng nakaraang linggo, kumuha ako ng english proficency test na rinerekwayr ng UPEPP(University of the Philippines Extension Program in Pampanga, krap, hindi ko mawari kung bakit kinakailangan pa nilang magtayo ng ekstensyon program sa labas ng Metro Manila, malayo sa kabihasnan, na samantalang ang kampus nila sa Diliman ay napakarami pang bakanteng lote!) na kunin ng lahat ng freshmen. gumising ako ng pagkaaga aga(oo maaga! pasado alas singko ng umaga, sa ganitong mga panahon, maaga na yun para sa akin) sumakay ng bus at tinahak ang kahaban ng elliptical road, kumanan sa kanto ng east avenue hanggang makarating ng Epifanio Delo Santos Avenue(mas kilala sa bilang EDSA kung saan mangilang "people power" na din ang idinaos) ang edsa ang pinaka sa mga pinakang kalsada sa buong pilipinas. rurok na, kung baga. isang bagay lang ata ang magandang nangyari sa EDSA. yun ay ang MRT. yun lang. makalipas ang mahigit kumulang 2 oras nasa kwarto na ko nag susulat ng esey tungkol sa "best thing that you learned in High School". pagpatak ng alas onse pasahan na ng mga papel. haay. parang timang, gumising pa ko ng pag kaagaaga,nagpakahirap mag komyut, para lamang mag sulat ng apat na paragrap. hay ewan. nung tuesday, lumabas na yung resulta, napabilang ako sa mga mapapalad na nakakuwa ng mataas na marka. un palang test na yun ang syang mag sasabi kung anung asignatura ang iyong kukunin ( English 1 o Communication 1),communication1 ako.

ako lang ang tumuloy ng up... si jihan ka chat ko ngayun, sa feu na sya.. si aika, di ko lam kung san na.... ako nga lang yata sa klase namin ang luluwas ng maynila para magaral... haaay... eksayted? kung ganitong nalalapit na ang pasukan, dapat oo, pero dati yun. nung hayskul pa ko... naalala ko yung tuwa ko nung napunta ako sa kasilag.... gideon.. ariel... grace... mukhang magiging maganda ang hulig taon ko ah!....nag dilang anghel nga yata ako..... Astig ang huling taon ko sa dps. ngayun, ewan.... eksayted? hindi masyado.... mas angksyus kesa eksayted.... haaay.... siguro mas eksayted ako kung sa ust ako?.... siguro nga.... haaay.....

Posted at SATURDAY, JUNE 4, 2005 BY onivelnyu

APRIL 30,2005 SATURDAY
Singkamas.

fuck them all. sa nakalipas na dalawang linggo wala akong ibang ginawa kundi ang asikasuhin ang mga papeles ko sa ust. mangilang beses akong nagpabalikbalik uste. nagconfirm ng slot. nagbayad ng limanlibo. naghabol ng mga requirements. nag check ng sections. naghanap ng scholarships. kumpleto na lahat. kulang na lang enrollment. i was scheduled to enroll on the 23rd of May. couple of days ago my aunt arived from bicol. for the past two days, she along with my other aunts have been pestering me about choosing up instead of ust.

iba pa din ang up, pag dito ka nagtrabaho, ipakita mo lang ang diploma mo galing up, tanggap ka kaagad. ano ka ba? iba pa din ang up. kahit na mag magna cumlaude ka dyan hindi pa din nyan mapapantayan ang up. tingnan mo si ganito ang ganda ng taas ng sweldo sa ibang bansa, up graduate yan. mahirap ng lumipat sa up kung galing ka sa labas, kahit flat 1 ka pa hindi ka nila aasikasuhin agad mas ipriprioritize nila ang lumilipat galing ng ibang campus. ang dami daming gustong pumasok ng up, ikaw nakapasa ka, tapos hindi mo naman itutuloy, sinayang mo lang ang pagkakataon!

pota. kung kelan ayus nat lahat lahat ang ust ko, ngayun bigla kang dadating tapos mangungulit kayong mag up ako?! anu to gaguhan?! e amp! when it was time for me to decide which college to choose, no one was there to offer an advice or something. and now, just when evrything's about to be finalize you people suddenly shows up telling me what the hell i should do. first it was my course, now even my school. this is my life for cryin out loud!ugh!
sa martes daw pupunta kami ng pampanga, aalamin kung open pa ung slot ko dun. papaganahin ng tita ko mga konekoneksyon nya. amp talaga.

Talong.

Posted at SATURDAY, APRIL 30, 2005 BY onivelnyu

APRIL 23,2005 SATURDAY
la lng, naisipan ko lang mag update. anu nga ba?,not much.... eto, as i type, nagkakagulog pa din sa irc(#kasilag) pang ilang marathon nanamin to. hahah! ang saya sa loob. si gideon, si leanne, si jed, si maki, wala si kathryn pati si gino, hahah!, tska sya. grabe si vale. di ko akalain. hahaaha! pagbigyan daw, kasi tutungo naman daw ng batangas wala for the next 3-4 days. hahaha. hala sige!. wala din akong ginagawa the past few days. puro marathons. kaya ang gising tuloy eh alauna kundi alas tres ng hapon. hahah! mamaya na nga pala yung GodWars sa Tantra. hmm... i was hoping i could join the chaos. hekhekhke. currently im at level 50. oh well. ang baba. nwei. been busy reading this book, Trump, How to Get Rich, by yeah, The Donald Trump. astigin ung libro. since i strted watching the apprentice na astigan ako kay don. hahah. isa sya sa mga astig na tao! as in. nwei, i plan to write a separate entry bout the book, so hnggng d2 muna. hehehe. hmm.. nu pa nga ba?si vale, kanina pa nag paalam, hnggang ngaun di pa din lumalayas. hahah!. ayun. hmm.. d2 n lng muna. wala na ko maisp. hahah! next tym uli.

senti mode pala ko ngaun..... sarap ng pakiramdam ng.... oh well... ^__^

Posted at SATURDAY, APRIL 23, 2005 BY onivelnyu

APRIL 21,2005 THURSDAY
hahah! bagong layout! malaking pagbabago dun sa dati hekehke. la lng, naisipan ko lang magbago,para maiba naman, ksi ung dati, parang bigla kong "narealize" na parang ang lungkot nung dating, dark colors and all. kaya e2, kabaligtaran. heheh. hmmm.... nu nga ba?, ah! galing kami sa ust nung sang araw nagpasa kami nung mga stuff na kulang pa. grabe tuition, 27k per sem, mamumulubi kami dun. lilipat ako ng UP sa 2nd year hahah. wish me luck. ang saya s irc the past few days, madalas marathon kami dun. haha! ako, si jayson magbojos, si kathryn pangan, si leanne lamanilao, si gino, si gideon pati si cameh, lugi kami parati sa kanya, kasi kami inumaga na,tas sa kanila gabi pa lang! hahah. daya! ang tambayan namin sa #kasilag hindi sa #dilimanians. hahah! naalala ko, loko pala un si rayrayray, kung anu anu pinagsasabi sa #kasilag.lolz. hahaha! oh well! aun, cge dito muna. sna magustuhan nyu bago layout. malayo dun sa dati. hehe!

Posted at THURSDAY, APRIL 21, 2005 BY onivelnyu

APRIL 15, 2005 FRIDAY
Oh well! Its been a while indeed! Time for a recap ^__^ Been really busy with this game called tantra, adik nanaman ata uli ako sa larong to, hahah! oh well!, recap recap!
April 6
went to UST to confirm our slot, then tried to present the certificates sir paciona gave us as an alternative for the requirements needed. They didn’t honor both and told us to pay 5k (I guess it was some sort of penalty for not being able to comply with their demands) yeah, we did blame dps.
April 7
Went back to ust to pay 5k, was asked to return before april 20 to submit the needed requirements. She left for Europe. Texted her at around 5 in the afternoon, wished her a safe trip and bid her farewell
April 8
Had lunch with Yvonne at tapa king (sarap kasi ng tapa nila dun, hmm… pano kaya nila linuluto un?), my treat, chatted with her for ½ an hour, reminisced the past, asked about each others future plans. After that, took a cab to Gideon’s place, watched “dodgeball” then went to SM Fairview, hah!, going to sm, we rode this hell – sent FX (it was such an experience!, imagine yourself heading towards the mall onboard a microwave oven, fun!, aint it?). Upon arriving at the mall, We err… I mean they (I already ate at tapa king, heheh!)Ate lunch (although it was already waaaaay past lunch time) at french baker. Decided on watching “robots”. Yeah it was fun, but for me, it was a little shallow. (Of course it was shallow, after all, it was meant to be viewed by kids not by 16 year olds! lolz)after the movie, we went to netopia, played tantra (yet again) for around 2 hours, then she went ol, too bad I was in invisible mode, and was a little busy with yeah, tantra. It was Gideon who was able too chat with her (i was lyk, man! %^&#!#@ dapat di na lang ako nag invisible! aaargh! lolz) hahah! Then finally, we decided to go home for it was already a bit late (saka pinapalayas na din kami ng netopia, magsasarado na daw sila kasi.lolz), once at gideon’s place we changed clothes, tambay sa labas ng bahay nila, kwentuhan and all. Went to his room, watched 2 movies (white chicks, Austin powers gold member) stayed up till 5 in the morning, finally gave up, slept then woke up at around 12nn. Ate lunch then went home. Hah! I had so much fun! Too bad ariel didn’t make it (for some unspecified reason, lolz) April12
graduation day. (drum roll) went through a lot just to convince my brothers to attend my graduation. Fortunately they did! (once in a bluemoon lang kami makumpleto. Lolz!) The whole “thing” started at around 4 in the afternoon. After a couple of hours and with tears falling down on everyone’s eyes (anla! Lolz, pero di nga yung iba, umiyak,wahehehe, ako?,masaya ko nung graduation!,tapos na ko dun sa “tears falling down their eyes” hehehe, ika nga, “naka move na”=) ), it was all over. Oh well! Astig ung valedictory address ni jayson magbojos!, he sang at the end of his speech (Joey McIntyre, stay the same), then came the picture – an blues, class picture was taken, (may mga umepal na din man lucretians! Argh!.lolz), then kanya2 ng pa picture gamit ang kanya2ng camera. Waheheheh!. Then finally, after the dust has cleared, we headed for Max’s haaay, finally! Nakakain diiiiin!!!! My last meal was lyk, 10 in the morning?. Lolz!
and so it ends…after more than a decade at Diliman Preparatory School I finally bid farewell. Oh well…. Ill end this entry with a quote sent to me by keshia

friends together
soon to part
once we grew
we shared
we loved
but now
we bid ourselves
farewell
coz
highschool life
as we all know
is OVER..
good life
good love
good looks
SENIORS’ 04 – 05
Now – signing – off!

Posted at FRIDAY, APRIL 18, 2005 BY onivelnyu

March 26, 2005 SATURDAY
Saw this one poem kuya kiko made way back when he was in highschool. He’s a real whiz when it comes to poems. After reading the poem, I suddenly remembered her. juz thought I post it up here. La lang…. Here it is… para sayo…

On the Wings of an Angel
By: Francis
The stars are out, it’s late at night,
In bed I tug, my pillow tight,
I hear the waves, as they kiss the shore,
I dream of you and nothing more.

Then the swaying breeze hits my face,
And seem to gift me, a warm embrace,
Then through my ears, it passes a whisper,
Telling me hold you and love you forever.

For through the days and nights I’ve cried,
With oceans of tears, those I can’t hide,
For those lone days, that seemed eternity,
Longing for you, almost meant death for me.

When I thought ‘twas over, I was down on my knees,
All I had was chaos, drowning in the seas,
You stood there beside me, and spread off your wings,
And showered me hope, thousands of dreams.

There were times I thought, it was better to fall,
Than to live this life, with no meaning at all,
But you told me to keep, the least hope I’ve got,
For God has plans, “He shall leave us not”

I see the stars, they’re out tonight,
In bed I lay, warm and tight,
I wonder who, I wrote this poem for,
I gaze the stars, and see an angel once more.

oh well! buhaaay nga naman..... sayang... hndi din nman nya mababasa.lolz. ........malapit na...walong araw na lang... lilipad na sya ng vienna.... haay.... 3 buwan din sya dun... oh well..... ako naman, eto, tuliro pa din, di pa din makapag desisyon kung anung gagawin ko sa buhay ko. di pa din makapili ng unibersidad na papasukan. sadyang napaka kumplikado talaga ng buhay. sobra.

Posted at SATURDAY, MARCH 26, 2005 BY onivelnyu

March 20, 2005 SUNDAY
uuuh.... ok.... its been a loooooooooong wyl olredy. nag new year na, nag valentines na, nag 3rd quarter, tpos na prom, tapos na 2nd quarter, ngaun, magmamahal na araw na... haaay. thx to gideon, kung d sknya, di pa siguro ako maguupd8. lolz. uuh.. been addicted to this new MMORPG letely. playing it since last quarter. lolz. juz this aftrnun, i played for 4 straight hours,tantra's the name of the game, intodced by abs-cbn{aku pa, e sos, avid fanng abscbn,lolz} . lolz. d prom was fyn.... we stayed overnyt at the westin philippine plaza sa lugar na kung tawagin ay heavenly suite. haaaay. suubrang saya dun. d ko mkklmtan. prom nyt was really, reaaly fun. as in. last week natpos na ang exams. ntpos na paghihirap. haaaaaay.... la na. tapos na highschool. college nman. 11 yrs.... more dan a decade. itanggi ko man ngunit sadyang napamahal na talga ako sa aking eskwelahan. haaaay.diliman preparatory school. oh well... still in the stage of denial, havent yet moved on. ewan ko... uko pa tlga grumadweyt eh. up, pasado..... pampanga nga lang. theres no way im going there. no way. feu, candidate for scholarship. ust, pasado din naman. dun na lang ako.... magkataon, kaklase ko pa si gid. haaaay. bakit pa ba kasi kailngan mag college??? wahehehehehehe. haaaaaay..... april 12 graduation. bukas, shooting graduation pic. aukooooooooooooo paaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa pramisssssssssssss. andami kong ma mimiss, pinaka masaya ko, 2nd yr at 4th yr. pero pinak masaya, as in pinakamasaya, kasilag days pa din talaga. si mam chiong, ung klasrum, lahat lahat. si 45degrees, si barakuda, si apra varaha raja, si giraffe, ung sacs, si emkey - ka2long - ni - jenna, ai ate josie, nd lately, si qeuun bee. oh well....... buti pa ung iba, hndi gn2 maapktuhan, ewan ko ba. mxdo ata akong attached w/ dlman prep. haaaay. bala na si God. come what may. pnhon n lng bhla. sa mga susunod na araw lalong lumalapit ang gradwysyon, unti unting napupuno ang katauhan ko ng bagay na tinatwag na angst. sana buhay pa ko pag dating nag graduation. haaaay.

Posted at SUNDAY, MARCH 20, 2005 BY onivelnyu

March 20, 2004 SUNDAY
here i am... in love again. for so long ive controlled myself. never let "my guard down", never let my emotions get the best of me. i never wanted to be in love again. never again will i fall, never again will i make a fool of myself. atleast not in the near future. those words, rpted to myself over and over and over again. concentrate on my studies. focus. be a nerd!. girls!,theyre just a waste of tym. swore to myself never again, after everythng that hppned..... the last tym. 'was juz 2 much. i felt so stupid. so stupid. how could something so ryt be so, complicated, so, so...... aaargh!. now what, the past few weeks been flrting with this girl. sent her qoutes(yeah, those mushy ones), chatted wit her flirtly(is there such a word...), even sent her flowers(...last thursday), so far evrythn ws goin smoothly, den i let my frnds know of her exstnce. evrythng juz wnt wrong, for som rison, (i dunno wat the hell)i was at unease and yeah, have to admit, very much apprehensive. i knw i shdnt be bhving this way, its juz not ryt. i dunno, mybe bcoz 1 of them olrdy made frnds w/ her, but yeah, i know, so what?!, theyre juz frnds juz friends. yeah, thnkng the same thing 2. hell, i dunno. mybe bcoz of past xpreinces, w/ rgrds to these things. it ws me(well, sorta) hu intrdced jo 2 lyn; then julio 2 lyn. i fell foR her, (fell reallly, deep that is)evry tym i see dem i ws lyk , so hus 2 blame?, it ws you hu let them made friends w/ each other aftrol, so now hu's suffring? s2pid asshole. one of the risons y i hate regrets. i hate blaming myseelf. i h8 the feeling of knowing that you could have done these, could have done that, but now its too late. too late. now im having second thoughts..... first, we dont even talk in school, we jz stare at each other lyk manequins at penshoppe, u have a gf hum u hvent prsonally tlked 2 yet. how s2pid is that?. shes leaving for vienna. yeah, the austrian capital, shes staying there until resume of clases and shes leaving on the 4th of april. how cud "it" work wen this early shes olredy leaving(.....funny, it was jz lyk b4, only then it was lyn departing for taiwan, history loves repeating its self, tym and tym again). angst angst angst angst. my title really rocks!. its what i olways feel. olways. God forbid i may not be able to last till graduation day.

Posted at 12.47am MONDAY, MARCH 21, 2005 BY onivelnyu

January 2, 2004 SUNDAY
yeay! new layout! happy new year!!!!!!!!! hehehehe. bagong taon, bagong layout, phew! ang hirap gawin, ay, i-edit pala, hahahah!. next tym n lng ako post tungkol sa buhay2, ung continuation, nxt tym n lng uli. hahahah!. astiiig! ang hirap pala, grabe, saludo ako kay keshia!stig tlga un, ngaun ko lng nlman, mahirap pla tlga mag prsonalize ng layout. kttpos ko lng tong gawin, kagabi nghanap ako sa net, tpos aun, ntpos k xa ngaun, after siguro mga 15 working hours?. hahah! first tym ko, kya medyo na ngangapa. hahahah! nwei, ung dating blog pala iniba ko n lng ng adress, hahaha. eto na ang bagong onivelnyu.com. hehehehehe. ay. o nga pla, cge na!,may pasok pa pala bukas, dami ko pa pla gagagwin, hahah! bigla ko naalala. cge! paalam! happy new year uli!

Posted at SUNDAY, JANUARY 2, 2004 BY onivelnyu

December 19, 2004 SUNDAY
Rising oil prices, rapid inflation rise, fare hikes, all these highlight President Arroyo’s first few months in office since her triumphant reelection bid last May. Immediately after her proclamation, the president stressed out ten economic programs she promised to impose during her first year in office. Incorporated in this was her promise to deliver 10 million jobs in her next six years in office, creating a million or so each year. In complete contrast to this, our country experienced the highest recorded unemployment rate in decades and the highest number of jobless Filipinos - nearly 5 million - that the country has ever seen. Oil prices went from bad to worse, and her administration seemed ignorant to all these, she could have at least tried using her influence and ask oil companies to delay oil price hikes. Corruption in the government is rampant, public officials being investigated for allegedly amassing billions worth of public funds. How is she supposed to improve the country’s economy and attract foreign investors if she’s not doing anything to wipeout the corruption in the government? A leading newspaper recently reported a huge drop in direct foreign investments in the country. A myriad of reasons why our country is not an attractive investment site for foreigners were cited by the paper. The only thing keeping our economy afloat is the remittances from Overseas Filipino Workers. A total of $53.43 billion were sent home by OFWs between 1984 and 2001. In 2001 alone, the OFWs’ total foreign exchange remittances were $6.03 billion representing eight-percent of the country’s Gross National Product. Just recently, the senate passed a new bill imposing new taxes on the public, adding to the people’s burden. The president should stop imposing new taxes on the people, she should instead, improve her administration’s tax collection program, this is the key to lessening the country’s deficit. What’s the use of imposing all these taxes when they don’t even get collected? Or worse, go straight to a few corrupt officials’ pocket?! (Still to be continued..)

Posted at Sunday, December 19 2004 by onivelnyu

December 2, 2004, THURSDAY
Haaaaay!!apat na magkakasunod na bagyo sa loob ng isang buwan! Grabe... Sobra sobrang pagkawasak ang dinanas ng mga taga quezon at rizal. Tsktsktsk... pabaya kasi, hindi marunong mag alaga ng kalikasan. Ika nga ng kaklase ko, "mabuti na yun! At least nabawasan ang populasyon ng Pilipinas!". Loko. Pero, kahit papano, okey na din yun, atlis, walang pasok ngayun, at malamang hanggang bukas!.

Haaay.... ano nga ba?, last week, 35th foundation week ng school, buong linggo, halos wala kaming ibang ginawa kundi ang tumunganga sa loob ng klasrum, walang klase, tinatamad ang mga titser magturo, ay! Haha! Maliban sa pisika, sadista yun si maam eh, bigyan ba naman kami ng asaynment na pagkahabahaba, tapos kinailangan pa naming pumunta sa isang construction site! Hindi lang yun, yung asaynment pang binigay samin, prablem solbing as usual, ni isa don, eh hindi pa samin dinidiskas! Pamatay! Nangapa tuloy kami sa libro, haha! Grabe din ano! Sadista... haha! Buhay nga naman...

we looked like fools, standing in front of a construction site, in the middle of a storm!,just so we could finish our physics assgnment. By the time we were done with our physics thing, our clothes were already soaked in rain, not to mention the freezing cold! And we still have to walk a few blocks back to ariel’s place. Ugh!

Huling limang buwan na..... pagkatapos nito, kolehiyo na... hanla... Di na ko umaasa pang makapasa sa UP, sa dinami dami ba naman ng naghahangad na makapasok, imposible...kung gayon, dalawa na lang ang pagpipilian ko, FEU o UST?, sa FEU, 99% ang resulta ng entrans test ko, sa pagkakaalam ko, eligible for scholarship na un. Ung UST naman, sabi kasi ng tiyahin kong nasa estados unidos, dun daw maganda kunin ang PT.

PT.... physical therapy..... hindi ko kelan man pinangarap na kurso. hindi kelan man sumagi saking isipan na manghilot at mangmasahe ng mga taotao. I have nothing against physical therapist nor the course per se mataas pa nga ang tingin ko sa kanila, bakit? Nasa larangan kasi sila ng panggagamot, people who continuously save lives for a living. Astig ung ganung trabaho, lalo’t higit, nakakatulong kana, kumikita ka pa ng malaki!kumikita ka ng malaki, sapat para buhayin ang pamilya mo, at bilhin ang mga luhong nais mo.

Yan kasi ang madaming openings dito. Maraming openings, sa madaling salita, in - demand . ano pa nga ba?, ayoko ko namang tumunganga na lamang pagkatapos kong grumadweyt sa kolehiyo sa kadahilanang walang makitang trabahong akma sa aking natapos. gustuhin ko mang maging economist, lawyer, branch manager ng isang bangko o dili kaya isang physicist, ang realidad ay napakalinaw, in present times, for someone to attain succes he has to work some place else, and it so happens that those courses i dream of taking ever since i was a kid is not, in lay man‘s term, "in demand" saan?, san pa nga ba... edi sa "States!"

Kurapsyon, sobra sobrang populasyon, krimen, kahirapan, ga - higanteng utang, palpak na gobyerno.... nakakasawa na!magbubukas ka ng telebisyon, patayan, nakawan,kidnapping.. lahat na!, walang ipinagiba sa mga pahayagan, pareparehas ang laman, iisa ang sinasabi: bukas makalawa, magugunaw na ang pilipinas.... pilipinas lamang.... it is very frustating to see your neighboring countries getting ahead of you, thailand... malaysia... singapore... vietnam... prosperous economies, peaceful countryside, satisfied populace. And to think that once it was us, who was way ahead of them!

oo nga’t kelan lang ang Thailand ay nakaranas din ng kaguluhan mula sa mga separatist muslims in their southern region, ngunit anong nangyari?, gumamit ng dahas ang kanilang prime minister upang puksain ang nakaambang rebelyon, oo nga’t tumanggap sya ng mga puna at kritisismo mula sa ibat ibang grupo, ngunit ano?, nagdalawang isip ba sya? Hindi. Ika nga ni Kapitan Heneral sa El Fili, kabanata 31, "kailangang ipagpakasakit ang ilan, para sa kapakanan ng nakararami"

wika ko nga sa kaklase ko, "alam mo ba ang latest trend ngayon?, umakyat ka sa isang mataas na lugar tapos pag sapat na ang mga taong nakakakita sayo, pag kinukuhanan ka na ng ABS at GMA saka ka tumalon."

Sikat ka na, at kung matuluyan ka pa, nakatulong ka pa sa population commission na bawasan ang ating populasyon. Astig!

haaay buhaay nga naman.... ewan ko na lang kung san patutungo ang Pilipinas!

Posted at Thursday, December 02, 2004 by onivelnyu